Happy Eid Fitrah

Wishing all my loyal readers and dear friends a wonderful and peaceful Eid Fitrah.

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI."
"Maaf Zahir & Batin

Sincerely Yours,
Sankai

Difficult Times Ahead

I couldn't sleep tonight. Its been like this for the past 3 weeks or so. Worst during the last week. So, finally i took up the courage to finally un-webbed this blog of mine.

My father. He taught me things about life that i can only be so much grateful for.

I often quarrel with my father about life, and i often say "that its my life, and i only get to live it once, so i want to live it to its fullest". And the reply from my dad, is often a baleful laughter.
I never realized what those laughters meant until of late.....

I have been taking for granted all of the people around me that i failed to realize what they were trying to tell me. In this life, we only have one chance to make up the right thing and that my earlier statement was the most selfish one ever. In truth, this is not just my life. My life is on borrowed time given by the Creator to me. Which without it, i wouldn't event be here in the first place. What life is all about has always been puzzling. But when i say those words out of realization, i finally understood what life means.

Subhanallah, Walhamdulillah, Wallahu Akbar.

God is great.

Throughout my life, I have encountered so many people much like myself, in search of the meaning of life. Where so many people came of age finally gave up and just decided to live life as it goes. I as so many others, made so many mistakes in life which has stained our lives forever, In the past as it may be, as generous as time always is, it moves forward. Giving us the next second of opportunity to make things right. But the past will remain in the past and nothing can be done to change it. This time continuum is what challenges us to be the best of who we are. By learning from our past, seizing the current moment and making the best for the future. I say this is the kindness of Time. How we take it, what we do with it, makes all the difference in our life.

"Living the life to its fullest" is a statement with so many pot holes that if you interpret it without wisdom, the statement can be your undoing.

The strength people have are often conjured up from their beliefs in life. These set of beliefs are what gets us through the day. I question the beliefs as i say that beliefs is a part of being human. But i often question too, that what we should believe in. As a friend of mine often say, its just a matter of perspective. But perspectives are just relative whereby it differs from one person to another. Relativity in not absolution of truth. So the only true perspective/belief would be from the divine, an absolution of truth. Something unquestionable and complies with our own ability of thoughts and conscience. Something..... Godly...

Realizing this, life does not seem all that complicated. And in fact and reality, it isn't. Just believe in God and everything falls into place. Good times or difficult times. Believe in it and you will see that everything happens for a reason. A good reason if you are wise. A bad reason if you are not...

So open up your eyes and see.....

And say... "Masya Allah" and "Innalillahi wa innalillahi rajiun". I began to see the painting of me... of myself.... How i am to say, that there is so much love and that i feel it...

No one ever said that life is easy. Especially when the truth is, that we are constantly battling with ourselves against what is right and what is wrong. Against our beast that resides deep within ourselves. Against our nafs. Its never easy to do the right thing and its often easy to lose in defeat to our own nafs..... its what i would call Dar-Al-Harb, or the lands of war. The war is within ourselves.

So how do we deal with life when its like this? One step at a time. Believe. And try to do things in moderation. Never the extremist. Balance has always been the key.

With this, i renew my statement in life. "I wish to live a meaningful life. Something that is real. Something that is true." To touch those around me, and to be the me i am meant to be. Insya'allah. I pray.

As a famous quote from August Rush.... "The music is all around us, all you have to do, is listen..."
And as ugly as people can be, they will try to take it away from you....

Difficult times is ahead. Especially when i am alone. But i believe... He is watching....

Good nite.
Salam Ramadhan....